So not me

Just a random post 

Im feeling so-not-me , ecommerce & marketing is so not my style.

Now I wonder why Im there taking this course

Now I wonder why Im studying the things I dont like

I changed . I changed to be more hardworking than before , seriously .

But every subjects I study , I cant reach my goal , I just can't .

What's wrong with me ? I feel so lifeless everyday , pesimistic.

I hate myself for still missing you after all of the disappointments you give to me

after all of this time 

Im letting go , IM , letting you go doesnt mean I stop caring , 

just I stop trying to force you to when I know you dont even give a fcuk.

FML